joshua

December 10, 2009

Angels/Wolves

Filed under: Hong Kong — jwchen89 @ 3:37 pm

An angel will disguise itself as a human bein
for the time bein, the pair of wings u will not see em
instead of heavenly robes they’ll jus be wearin em clothes
with the same folds you and I both know but holdon
They can even be the one you chill with
a person that you’re real with, embodied in the flesh
and the mission is clear, if he an angel then his purpose is to guide you
to listen while he walkin right beside you, I don’t lie
There are really angels on the outfield
they out there, without fear, but doubt fills our mental don’t it?
designed as messengers providing at the perfect moment
nothin bogus here cuz G.O.D himself wrote it
Only motive of an angel is to make u worship
the living God, not itself ever or another person
pay close attention to the halos, don’t lay low
when an angel reaches out its hand and questions you by askin…

*will you worship?

you find yourself driftin yea u kno them days, the waves
they carry you far, instead of fightin back from where u are
foundations are jus shaking but u choose to stay
choose to go astray from the only one that saves, you know
in this path of self destruction start to question any faith
when you notice someone’s by your side
indeed an angel, man it’s gotta be. so well-groomed, wit wisdom in his eyes
you cry as he tells you not be afraid, its okay so u start to share wit him
the pain sayin that u aint ready to change yet,
u wait. but the angel just embraces u
tells u its ok to take ur time and not to rush, hush child dont u kno that God is good?
hush child dont u know that God is good.
feelin comforted in knowing that he understands
you put your trust in him, the angel as he takes u by the hand
u feel the will to tell him that u feelin stronger now
that it won’t be much longer till you’re comin back around
he smiles. then replies “yo it’s time for me to go”
and in one swift motion he is ghost, and you’re left alone
the very next minute a kid calls you on your celly
“dawg we got the good ish there’s a party down at kelly’s”
*click* you hang up. You try to pray for strength but you give up
You tell yourself the angel even said that it was cool to take your time
Fine, you call him back and say you’re on your way
drivin down the same road, in your mind you’re thinking

*will you worship?

you can hear the party bumpin as u park your ride
you thinkin twice but ur flesh cries “it’s on tonight”
God forgive me for my sinful ways
but i aint ready, amen. you pray quickly as you make your way in
the same friends that you know to be your downfall
surroundin as you enter in
they welcome you wit love sayin “let him in!”
20 minutes in and it’s ur normal routine
intoxicated state of mind thinkin no one will see
as you cough away another shot of henny
someone pats you on ur back as he pours another gently
thankfully you look up to recognize
the one whos sittin at your side, now you’re lookin eye to eye
with the very angel, but whys he lookin kinda odd
the same angel? what’s he doin here sittin in this chair
and u notice that he’s raggity, chokin on a blunt
and he looks at me weird askin if i want a hit
no son, yo what’s goin on foreal and you ask him who he is
“your angel,” he replies, “put ur trust in me my friend”
he grins and he tells me not to worry but i should
cuz all he says next is ‘hush, God is good.’
starts laughin so I pull away, get away from me
standin up i look around at all his friends and its strange
all their faces look the same and they smilin
I wanna pray so i start but then i get the call
hello? and it’s the kid who invited me earlier
sayin, “stop avoiding me. relax. stop worryin”
i look up to see the dirty angel on the phone
starin at my eyes he says “you are not alone, i want ur worship…”

‘Beware of the wolves that come disguised in sheep’s clothing.’

a brief moment of divine providence

Filed under: America, HKU, Hong Kong, Providence, Random Thoughts, School — jwchen89 @ 3:00 pm

I was kinda down bout not knowing many Christians in Hong Kong.

But last Sunday, I experienced something that I can only call divine providence. On my way to the church I’ve been attending in North Point, I sit next to this woman on the subway, who kept staring at me.  I think I kinda looked tired and dejected, and she just kept looking at me. I thought it was kind a weird, but yea I was mad tired, so I just ignored and slept a little on the train. But when I woke up, she randomly (I thought, but in hindsight, God’s providence) asked me if I knew God, asking me if I wanted a few gospel tracts. I started talking with her about who I was and what I was doing here at Hong Kong. Even though I got off only a few stops later, and will probably never see her again, I realized that God does things in his own way, giving me encouragement in the most unusual of places. I hope that woman keeps doing her thing, she’s God a lot of courage telling strangers about God on a subway, one of the worst places to do it. I mean, cuz everyone is tired on the subway, and its paaaacked. Anyways, just thought I’d share this random story.

Also, the services recently have been on Advent/Christmas and it makes me happy, cuz Christmas is awesome! I don’t know bout you, but winter is my favorite season: the best holidays, the weather, the snow. Course, its never really winter in Hong Kong, so I can’t wait to see snow back in the US and be in brisk weather for a change. Back in the US for a 2 week break starting the 22nd!

4 more exams. Time to down those energy drinks.

December 3, 2009

Career, calling, decisions, God working.

Filed under: Allergies, Hong Kong, Random Thoughts, School — jwchen89 @ 5:04 pm

Feels like this whole year I been looking for something more.

Ever since I got into college I was very focused, had things set. I knew what I was doing, I was efficient, I got things done, I knew where I wanted to go.

But this year was different. Here in Hong Kong, God’s been working in me. Everything has fallen apart, making me realize that I don’t really know what I’m doing. Things started to change. I started getting allergy reactions. I realized that my major might not be my future. I realized that my priorities had been skewed. He’s been working through the my chronic health problems, pastor’s I’ve listened to, books I’ve read, a few kids at school, etc. Now, I’m not so sure about my goals, future, ambitions. Of course, I know that whatever I do in the future, it can be used as part of God’s larger scheme, but I’ve been so focused in college that I don’t want to let it all go, to ‘throw away’ all that I’ve been working for. But I’ve realized that I’ve got to shift my focus from myself to Him. I know were are all just part of the larger scheme, with Christ as the theme (ha thanks Ben Kung).

Basically, here’s how its gone down here. The harder I work in school, the more God seems to test me. Suddenly, at the seemingly the worst possible time, I get hit with an allergic reaction, exhaustion, or He works through someone, a pastor, friend or something, to tell me I am not on the right path. It’s like Brett said, I’m self-driven, but I just treat God as a icing on the cake -”I’ve gotta do things my way, but if You wanna help me out that would be great.”

But all the trials that have come my way, seem to be pushing me towards something different. Looking at my role models, I’ve always felt like I need to reach a certain level, to be an achiever. But it seems like all of that is breaking down. Engineering doesn’t seem like its my future anymore. Suddenly, my future seems open-which I don’t like at all-not knowing what you want to do, and feeling like what your doing right now in school is all going to waste.

Of course, I’ve still got another year to figure it all out, but I’m just praying that God keeps working in me, no matter how he has to-whether it means that he gets my attention through more allergy attacks (they suck! but if it’s what he needs to do), through other people, or however. All I want to do is honor God, but sometimes I don’t know how. In any case, I’m just praying that God will be near, that he will work through me and guide me. I’m in desperate need of it.

Why did I write all of this down here? I have no idea, but anyways I could definitely use prayer.

December 1, 2009

rando

Filed under: Cool, Dangerous, Random Thoughts — jwchen89 @ 3:41 pm

I just thought this was way cool though it’s gotta be really easy to fall off! Its Federer and Agassi playing on a court at the Burj Al Arab.

November 22, 2009

hallelujah

Filed under: Hong Kong, Random Thoughts — jwchen89 @ 1:07 pm

I read Psalm 150. course its always easy to praise, when it’s all going good. but like Brett said at Island ECC 2 weeks ago, true praise is when nothing seems to be going for u-true joy when it seems like theres nothing to be joyful bout, but He gives u it.

well anyways, for me,

it’s a cold and it’s a broken hallelujah. sigh

November 15, 2009

lost

Filed under: Hong Kong — jwchen89 @ 6:24 pm

I’ve been pretty lost lately. Classes are killing me. Amidst it all I just feel very lost. What am I doing anyways?

 

But anyways, Trust in God.

Health update

Filed under: Allergies — jwchen89 @ 6:22 pm

I’ve been having those allergy attacks more and more. Doctors never did find out what causes it. It’s hard not to be discouraged.

Honor You

Filed under: tim be told — jwchen89 @ 6:18 pm

I have toiled and laboured for things that pass away.

Working just to savor these numbered days.

Fruitless seeds I’ve sewn.

Worthless things Ive grown.

I offer you all that I own, though small and simple.

I prayer it honors you alone.

-tbt, honor you

October 19, 2009

I miss my puppy!

Filed under: America, Jake, Random Thoughts — jwchen89 @ 6:05 pm

Every few days, I realize that I really miss my puppy, Jake. I guess it’s really Jess’ dog but still. Also, he’s like 7 years old, but he’ll always be puppy to me. I miss you Jake!

He's having a nightmare in this picture haha. I love him

He's having a nightmare in this picture haha. I love him

Postscript. He whimpers when he’s having nightmares. haha thats how i knew he was having one..

October 18, 2009

Yahweh Shammah

Filed under: Hong Kong — jwchen89 @ 1:43 pm

So I go to Island ECC, whenever I can. http://www.islandecc.hk/ Today I woke up super early, so I actually decided to go to the 9:30am service. Really glad I did, because I needed it.

Gist: What the Lord’s Prayer really means, as a model for prayer, when you break it down.

Highlights:  His awesomeness/worthiness

                        Let God know what you want

                        Submit with “Thy will be done”

                        Asking God for ongoing sustainment

                       Receiving/Extending grace

                       God will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can bare

                      Praise - Beginning & End

                      Supplications/Provisions – Middle

 

The reason for the title – We also talked about 8  names of God:

Specifically, I felt that needed a reminder that Yahweh Shammah. “The Lord is There.” He is always with me. This popped in my head just now, something I should always keep in the back of my head: “Eph. 6:18. At all times, pray in the Spirit.

The Lord’s Prayer:

Our Father which art in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil:
For Thine is the kingdom, and thep ower, and the glory forever.

Amen.

By the way, video/pictures still to come. This is just a study break distraction, so I can’t justify wasting more time ;)

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